feel your beauty

Being beautiful is more than how many boys/girls you can get to look at you, or how much makeup you can wear, if you are girl. Being beautiful is more than new clothes and shoes, and it's more than  jewellery on you.

It's about what you live for. 

It's about what define you. It's about the heart that you have, and what makes you special. It's about those little quirks that make you, you. It's about knowing that you are a creation of God, created in His imagine. It's about shining for Him, no matter what else is going on around you. It's about going against the flow, and living out what you honestly think. And that is a beautiful thing.

if you want to be happy, BE

BE HAPPY, OKAY?

Just be happy, be happy every second, be happy every minute, be happy every hour, every day, every week and every month, and every year! Just be happy all your life! 

You may ask HOW

And I can tell you - you just have to see what a beautiful life you have! You have home, food, bed, computer, even internet connection , you have one person who really loves you, maybe he is from your family, or maybe he is your friend, or girlfriend/boyfriend, you have all possibilities to education, you can eat food, you can love, and you are loved, you are handsome human, you can smile, you can laugh, you can hug someone, you can communicate.

THINK ABOUT THAT.

and now remember ONE rule, for your life, to be happy everywhere and forever!

TELL YOURSELF what a wonderful person you are, tell yourself it EVERY morning, EVERY noon and EVERY evening! do it for yourself, and you will see difference!

and, my dear, don't ever listen what other people are talking about you, and your life, because you are amazing!

With love, all yours, Vaiva.

we accept the love we think we deserve

Love. What do you think about when you hear this world?

About someone? Or about exactly that feeling?

And look - It's funny how someone who was just a stranger last year, can mean so much to you now, now you think about that person when you hear word "love". It's terrible that someone who meant so much to you last year, who was your love, can be just a stranger now. It's amazing what a year can do.

And everything is so strange Human relationships were strange. I mean, you were with one person for a while, eating and sleeping and living with them, loving them, talking to them, going places together and then it stopped. Then there was a short period when you weren’t with anybody, then another person arrived, and you ate with him/her and you fucked him/her, and it all seemed so normal, as if you had been waiting just for him/her and he/she had been waiting for you. 

But GOD DAMN IT! Why I never felt right being alone, sometimes it felt good but it never felt right..

8 things you should not forget about life

1. Washing your hair is going to be a chore. But you should do it anyway. Because you will feel better about yourself.

2. Get up late. Have a lay in. Sleep past your alarm. You have a very long life ahead of you and for now you should appreciate the cold side of your pillow.

3. Don’t spend hours looking up what your name means on google. Your name is your name and you should go out there and do heroic and good deeds and give your name your own meaning.

4. Don’t fight your demons. Your demons are here to teach you lessons. Sit down with your demons and have a drink and a chat and learn their names and talk about the burns on their fingers and scratches on their ankles. Some of them are very nice.

5. Music is good for your soul. Rap music will energise you and boost your ego and pop music will cheer you up. Indie music will make you think and emotional songs will make you cry, it’s healthy.

6. You are allowed to be angry. But the world is not working against you. The flowers do not bloom for you and when your mother shouts ask her if she is okay instead of thinking she hates you. She never will. The world walks beside you and is silent. It does not trip you up or carry you.

7. Day and night cycles are natural. Humans only sleep at night because we used to avoid predators in the dark because of our poor eyesight. Stay awake until 5am watching bad reality shows. Wake up at 7pm and have breakfast.

8. Eat when you are hungry. Being bored does not constitute a chocolate bar. Sleep with you are tired. Do not mindlessly obey the sleep at night rule. If you are not tired, do not sleep.